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Name: withheld
Country: United States
State: New York
Metro: Brooklyn
Birthday: 9/25/1982
Gender: Female
Interests: languages, volunteering, backpacking, going to live shows and concerts, mountain climbing, japan
Occupation: Wanderlust
Industry: Advertising
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Member Since:
5/11/2002
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| I assisted my second photo shoot this week! Some of you may not know but I am trying to transition into fashion styling. It is taking some time as it would be freelance in the beginning and I am trying to save enough money to make the transition as smooth and pain free as possible. Definitely learned a lot and is something that I am interested in. I do enjoy advertising but I don't feel like it's as creative (I'm on the Account Management side) and you don't take as much ownership in your work. With styling, you will be able to set your own schedule and travel for months at a time. But it's also very risky because in the beginning, you are just constantly looking for work, networking, building contacts and have no sense of stability, which is something that I am not used to when it comes to working. Well, it's either now or never :) and what better place to do it than here in New York City?
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| I was trying that online dating for a while...hmm quite a while, actually, for about a year and went on many dates and none of them went past the first date. I think this is due to several reasons: I don't think I was physically attracted to any of them and physical chemistry and attraction for me is extremely important. If that doesn't exist, then it is hard to have a basis for a healthy and exciting relationship. Well, for me at least. Secondly, it's hard when you actually meet someone in person after you view their profile, chat with them etc because in your mind, you have already decided what this person is like, you already know their interests and there is not as much discovering to do. But if you were to meet a persn radonmly going out or through some friends, you have no expectations because this person just surprisingly showed up in your life. Or some might call this a chance encounter. I think the idea of something or someone just happening is much more intriguing than something planned.
But I do have friends who have had phenomal success with online dating and are in wonderful and healthy relationships. Just because it doesn't work for me, doesn't mean that it won't work for you or others ;) or maybe because I just haven't met the right one yet.
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| Sorry for being such a slacker lately. Well, I am going to try and jump back into this because at least I can say I am writing during my time at home rather than just watching movies and TV all the time! Sadly, that is what my life has been like...
I am going to write about how it is so hard to date in New York City- much harder than I had expected and still is. There are so many single people in the city and I see so many attractive guys on the streets, on the train platforms, supermarkets, you name it. But I guess the other thing is that there are so many attractive women in the city, too. And it's pretty hard to talk to a random stranger. Actually, it's really not that hard but I think the attitude of New Yorkers is to keep to themselves and not talk to random strangers...It's pretty ridiculous because I have been on about 15 dates in one year and none of them led to a second date. There were some potentials but I just didn't have this sure feeling about them, like I knew that I definitely wanted to see them again. That chemistry has to exist for me on the first date otherwise I won't have a lot of faith in it resulting to anything. I don't think I am one of those people who can just learn to love someone. Maybe I am expecting too much and maybe I am only meant to date men that I already know. Sometimes I feel like I am not going to meet anyone new and will end up dating someone that has already appeared in my life as a lover.
What's even harder is that, the older you get, the less single friends you have= the less girlfriends you have to go out with=less opportunities for you to meet people. But in fairness, I rarely meet guys at clubs/bars. | | |
| well for now at least..since I am on vacation and have all this time on my hands!
So for those who don't know, I am back in Tokyo for about 18 days. Only for a visit :)
It's been a week since I first arrived..and as soon as I landed, I met up with friends for the good ole all you can drink and sing until 5 am karaoke deal in Shinjuku. Costed me 25 whole dollars! I did not sleep for more than 35 hours since I didn't really sleep on the entire plane ride here. I almost slept through all of Friday...
I'm having a lot of mixed feelings about being back...it feels like I never left. I don't feel like a visitor, I feel like a resident. When I was walking back to my old guesthouse for a visit, I felt like I was just walking home. And when I met some old coworkers for dinner, it felt like we just got off of work and going for dinner. It's so easy to slip back into this life because, it is after all an easy life. Being here has reminded me how easy it was...a job that wasn't too stressful and if there was any stress, it was stress that you could leave behind, once you walked out of the school. I used to have time to be able to read the newsaper, read books, reflect on my life, set goals and reach them, observe, feel and understand. But even if you did ask me to choose, I would stay in NY as is because this life has no future...well, not for me at least.
Will be back with another entry tomorrow. good night. Oyasumi nasai.
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| Are you unhappy if you are not happy?
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On the L train today, a buffed white gay guy and his black partner with a simiiar physique were holding hands. They were holding in a way where there fingers were intertwined. I was sitting across from them and I saw the white guy checking out the lesbian sitting to his right. | | |
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